Posts tagged personal posts
Relationship with Food Series Part 3: Seeing our Food and Body Image Struggles Collide

Last week in our relationship with food series we talked about the importance of safely, and from a distance, going on a little exploration journey. I asked you to look back at some of your stories and personal history with food to learn from it and view it with as much kindness as you could muster. For me, the first step in improving my relationship with food was taking an honest look at where I was with food, acknowledging that I was struggling and where that struggle was actually coming from. The very next step was taking inventory. I had to look back at my history with food and all the damage that going on endless diets had done, understanding that so many of my struggles with overeating and emotional eating came from this self-imposed restriction and focus on control and perfectionism. Soon after going on this little self discovery journey, it was time for me to see a different side of the equation, and it’s what we’re going to talk about today.

Body image was what was usually behind many of my habits with food and exercise and yet it was so incredibly difficult for me to see. So much of my focus was on healing what I considered to be my only problem: I would sit down to eat and paid no attention to my body’s cues, I would overeat until the point in which I was severely uncomfortable, and I would emotionally eat using food as my only coping tool to deal with difficult emotions. Just as I hadn’t seen the negative role restriction had played in my relationship with food, I would only see food as the culprit, food as the problem, food as my nemesis, food as something I needed to gain control over.

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The Podcast is Back!: Stories, Ramblings, The Start of a New Year and What's to Come at The Brownble Podcast

Hello my lovely listeners and readers! Boy it feels like ages since we’ve hung out together in the podcast and the blog (other than the yummy recipes we’ve been posting. I’ve missed you so much! What was supposed to be our 3 week winter break from the podcast turned into a two month hiatus and in today’s podcast episode I explain what kept me away for so long, how the year started, lessons learned thanks to a gorgeous Japanese woman and other ramblings, and of course, I let you in on all the nitty gritty details of what’s to come this year at the Brownble Podcast and in our blog.

Today’s episode is a little different from our usual ones, in that it’s a very informal conversation, which means today we won’t have our usual written version in the blog, but you can of course tune in through the play button above, or via iTunes or Stitcher!

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On Music, the Word Vegan, and the Things that Connect Us

If you follow us on instagram (@brownble), you probably saw a photo I posted last Sunday explaining why I had been a bit MIA. On the outside I was at the Mad Cool Music Festival in Madrid, but on the inside, I was in a much deeper and cooler place, where lots of magical things happened as we spent three days listening to music and taking it all in. It was so special that I just had to share it in today's episode which won't have our traditional written version, but which you can enjoy in full by hitting that play button above or listening on your favorite device via iTunes or Stitcher.

Although I'll be sharing lots of personal stories from these last three days and why music and concerts are such a big part of who we are, this episode is much more than just about the music. We'll be talking about the festival and the bands we saw and of course the amazing vegan food we had, but we'll also talk about the things that connect us all, what happens when 80,000 strangers are together with one shared love that links us together, why I've reached another level of zen and why Carlos is basically Yoda in a human suit (ok, Yoda in a hunky human suit). We'll also talk about the meaning of the word vegan, how the chorizo man turned into the vegan man this year, and how the world is slowly shifting to something new. We discuss community, Eddie Vedder's love song to the Chicago Cubs and so much more. I promise it all comes together in spite of this seeming like the craziest episode we've ever done. It's actually quite a simple one, and it's all about how music is my life, and one of those things that brings us all together.

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My Journey into Cooking

Our idea for Brownble initially came from my desire to teach people how to cook vegan food, and the fact that we live far enough away from the city that starting with a  small group of "in person" classes was a bit complicated. That's when Carlos came along with his high tech ideas and placed the first grain of sand into what Brownble is today, not only our new site and this blog, but also our online vegan cooking classes as part of our cooking membership program. What I realized the other day was that this has actually been a huge metaphor for what my journey into cooking has been like, and now I'm looking at Brownble in a whole new different light. Today I'm sharing a bit of that story with you. By the end of this post you'll know all about the strange way my mom influenced my cooking, what I used to do as a teen every single day after school, my obsession with the French, how veganism completely changed my experience in the kitchen, and why cooking scrambled eggs under a tree made me into the vegan cook I am today. Yes, I said scrambled eggs!

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The Dieting Chronicles, Part 1

If you read our last post or listened to last week's episode, you know all about what this new series entails. It's meant to tell you (and remind me) all about my personal stories with dieting, and there are many, in the hopes that we can finally start viewing food in a different way. That we can bring it back to the wonderful source of sustenance / creativity / delicious part of our lives that it actually is, and stop viewing it as a source of stress, calories, points, grams of this, as punishment or reward, and go back to listening to our bodies and enjoying food again. This anti diet philosophy is something I've been trying to share since the blog started, but it's also something I've failed at, many times over, hence last week's public apology

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Wellness Detective Work and Your Identity

Last week we talked all about visualization, weight loss, body image and I told you the reasons why my personal visualization is in a beach. Not any beach, but a very specific one due to the fact that it played such an important role in shaping my identity. As I promised last week I'm going to tell you all about it, not just for the sake of going down memory lane, but because it's a little exercise I want you to do too. In doing a little wellness detective work into the moments or places where your true identity was formed, lies a little gold mine that we seldom think about. It's something we simply title "nice childhood memories", and then we put it back in the shoe box with all the old photos and trinkets. Today I want you to dust off that box, leave it wide open until you find some very special tools that will help you find wellness today, wherever you're at in your life, and especially if you're currently going through any bouts of stress, anxiety or turmoil.

You know that our focus here at brownble is mostly on cooking, food and our relationship with food and our bodies, but you've also heard me say it countless times:

When our lives are calm and we reach that place of emotional wellness, all the pieces of our eating puzzle start coming together. We're able to make better choices at the table, and we're also able to set food aside and move on with a day that is filled with other experiences.
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